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Random Jottings ~ Insanity

insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting a different result

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‘you’ve got to be insane if you think I like abandoned railway yards’ she said

he could tell she wasn’t best pleased with their day out

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he was happy because he didn’t know what the hell was going on

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nothing is foolproof for a sufficiently talented fool

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he didn’t suffer from insanity, he was very happy being crazy

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he knew it was a win-win situation

she won and he didn’t

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‘FUN!’ she said, ‘this isn’t FUN!’

‘what’s next on your agenda, the creepy crawlies of the fucking snakes?’

he could tell she didn’t really like the outdoors life

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

‘just lock me up and throw away the key,’ he said

and so that’s what she did

Tunes on Tuesday ~ Insane

when love is not tinged with madness, it is not love

This song could well be the story of my life, given that the roles were reversed.  But these days I’m a very cool guy, living a really great life.  I am already a winner.

Please listen without identifying too much.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

even lunatics fall in love

I Need Help

nobody can be right all the time

It takes a lot for me to admit that I just don’t know ~ honestly saying to someone that I don’t have all the answers is difficult for me.  Appearing to be less than perfectly in control is an uncomfortable feeling and it takes a lot of guts for me to go there.  Admitting that I’m out of my depth, that I’m at a loss, that I haven’t got a clue what to do next, seems to me to show weakness.  In the hard-knock schools I was brought up in, to show weakness was to invite ridicule, persecution, bullying.  Even in my most senior roles in business, to be weak meant that you went to the wall.

To ask someone else for help, and genuinely mean that I needed help, has never been something that came easily to me.  In all of my life I guess the only people I have ever asked for help have been doctors and…..  nope, that’s it, doctors.

Well, now I need help, and the only thing I can think of to do is to pray, and sincerely mean my prayers.  It’s day 42 of lockdown, and because I was sick before March 23rd this is actually the 48th day I have been in quarantine / self-isolation.  I am emotionally and spiritually bereft.  I have a serious mental / emotional / relationship problem to deal with, and I’ve got nothing.  The well is fucking empty.  And me, the guy who can do anything, hasn’t got a clue what to do.

It’s like I’ve been driving in a great car, along a good straight road, through cool countryside by the ocean ~ and suddenly I’m standing there in the desert.  Alone.  And it’s hot, harsh, brutal, empty, and silent.

Where do I go from here?

I don’t have a clue.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

some deserts are pretty

right now mine is just brutal

Spirituality on Sunday

to walk the warriors path is to continually step out into the unknown

For years my life was based on self-belief, selfishness, and instant gratification.  I was a one-dimensional man, and deep down I was always afraid.  I went to church but I had no belief, I was married but there was no love, I was successful but all that gave me was money.

When we as human beings are disconnected from our true selves we place ourselves in a perilous position.  Our sense of identity becomes lost and we are prey to evils from within and without ~ anger, arrogance, envy, fear, greed, jealousy, lust, paranoia…..  There is no inner peace and little joy in our lives.  We act without thought for others, and we react to real or perceived attacks and slights with anger and extreme verbal or written or even physical aggression.  There is no real love in our lives, either for ourselves or for other people.

Just as a candle cannot burn without fire, men cannot live without a spiritual life.  ~  the Buddha

Without spirituality, without a belief in a power outside of ourselves, outside of that which we can explain through modern science, we do not live, we just exist.  This leads to serious physical, mental, and emotional problems and illnesses.  Alcoholism, explosive anger, drug addiction, gambling, infidelity, inappropriate casual sex, lust, resentments, narcissism, self-doubt, paranoia, fear, cowardice…..  It is not by chance that the second step of 12-step recovery programs is; Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

Accepting that there is a Power greater than ourselves is the beginning of spirituality, the beginning of a real connection with our true selves.  Spirituality means evolving our consciousness, and at each level of evolution we react to the Cosmos in different ways.  Most people are driven by what is happening in the world outside them, some shape their lives to live in the world they choose, and a very few change themselves by looking at the world inside themselves.  Extraordinary people learn to reshape themselves physically, mentally, and emotionally ~ learning inner peace, true happiness, and how to love themselves and others.

There are three principles to reaching inner peace, knowing our true selves, and spirituality;

  • associate with like-minded people, people who strengthen us. avoid toxic people and toxic relationships
  • put aside time every day to make and strengthen the connection with our true selves. rest, meditate, harmonise your heart and brain
  • transform our character; turn arrogance into humility, hate into love, paranoia into trust

Some say that there is no God, no Higher Power, nothing greater than man and science.  And that Spirituality ranks alongside Magic, Sorcery, and the belief in a Flat Earth for stupidity.  All I know is that a Power greater than myself restored me to sanity.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

My own mind was a prison

 

the madness of desire

.….you should stop being so carnal, and learn to say no to men.  ~  Adelaja

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animal anxiety ardour

benefits bitch bitterness

carnal courtesan covet

desire discontent distrust

eagerness ecstacy excitement

feelings fervour fuck

grope grasp grudge

harlot heat hussy

indignation insanity intensity

jaundiced jealousy tight jeans

karma kept kindness

libido love lust

madness mania mistrust

nonsensical nymphet nymphomaniac

obscene orgasmic outrage

paroxysm passion pleasure

rancour risqué romantic

screw sexuality shag slut

tart tolerance tramp

umbrage unhappiness urban-survival

vamp vixen vulgar

wanting whore welcoming

younger men

zeal zest zygote

she has animal demons inside her innocently carnal eyes

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

stroking her leg in public

some carnal women like that