Finding Myself

They’ve all come to look for America…..

Four intensive days attending a self-awareness retreat.  Because that’s what it was, self-awareness from the internal structure of human cells to the unconscious vibrations we put out into The Field that surrounds us all.  Most of all it was about getting in touch with my inner voice, the subconscious programs that run 95% of my life.

Turns out that most of my life was being run by all the crap I soaked up like a sponge before I was seven years old, and that left me prey to the greatest terror of all young children ~ the fear of abandonment.  Even the youngest child instinctively knows that if his or her primary care givers abandon them, then they will surely die.  That fear has been ruling my life for all of my life.

And, WTF, I am a uniquely capable and able grown man, who is more than equipped to look after himself in just about any set of circumstances, up to and including being shipwrecked on a desert island ~ and I won’t need a basketball to talk to.

The one thing that always unconsciously terrified me was the ending of a relationship with a woman ~ due to this whole fear of abandonment thing that was ruling my subconscious mind.

But, I know that now, and I also know how to change the programs that were ruling, and will continue to rule most of my life.  (You can Never get away from the fact that about 95% of what you do, think, and say comes from your subconscious.)

I have found the real me , I know the real me, and I have changed 2 big things about me.  I am no longer a bad carbon copy of my parents, (especially my dad), and I now longer fear abandonment.

The real me, the true me, is now a very cool and very capable guy 100% of the time.

Some say we can Never get away from our upbringing.  And, that we can never really change our innermost thoughts, feelings, attitudes, hopes, and fears.  All I know is that if you are prepared to work hard enough to find the fulcrum, then you can move your whole world.

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Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

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